Giving Up on You

10915241_10152876792155971_978935430022905142_n (3)The lyrics of the song “Say Something” capture the agony of loving someone who can’t or won’t love you back. I tried to hold on to my spouse and marriage, but eventually let go. There was a breaking point where I could no longer tolerate what was deeply broken, sick, and wrong. I came to the end of waiting, hoping, trying. Turns out, I had limitations to what I could endure and absorb. The end came after pleading for him to say something…. anything. If there was genuine remorse or effort or determination or steps in the right direction… I would have gone there with him.

It’s a process to say goodbye and travel alone. I feel small, scared, and unsure. With courage in my heart, I walk away and embrace a freedom that could only be found in giving up.

 

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2 thoughts on “Giving Up on You

  1. I’ve heard this song a million times and until I read your blog, it never really hit home for me. I hear you. I feel you. I’m with you. Turning that corner is the hardest part of starting the healing. I wonder…am I there?

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